21 days...

i don't wanna love you, but i do... its another night, i look at the clock and it's midnight.. i see the phone lying next to me and i keep mindlessly picking up that phone... i try to stop my hand but i can't.. its like a habit that is deep within me that has no rhyme or reason...

i don't wanna go back to you, don't wanna see you... now i really hate you.. it's so tough... i don't wanna love you but i love you.. i don't wanna hang on to you, don't wanna hold you... i wanna forget everything.. i wanna erase it all... i don't wanna miss you but I miss you..

we tried to break up a number of times.. we decided to a number of times but we keep coming back to this place... why does my love for you still linger? and why do i know we shouldn't do this? if we know then why? i don't know why in the world i do that... why can't i seem to leave you even though i'm in pain each day? i know that in the end i'll be hugging you... everyday the scar gets deeper.. time may go on but it will just get harder...