new chapter...

this new chapter i have for further road down seems so unclear... i felt so bad after i called you.. the voices are still the same... everything was just repeating over and over again.. it felt like i dont know you anymore...

went out late last night with a friend for a drink.. poured all the unpleasant feelings i have inside of me once more... he's one of my best friend i have and also a very good mentor to me.. maybe because we have so many things in common... gave me advice and reasoning.. i felt much better... and these words made me go thinking.. "if both of you are meant for each other, she will come back... someday.." after having a good talk we went back in... drank a little more and got dizzy.. but i like this feeling so i can sleep better at night...

and as i thought i would feel much better after yesterday.. reality strikes back right after i woke up... i've been dreaming of us every night.. it felt so real and that's the only time we can be "together"... but i hate these dreams.. everytime i wake up from it, my heart hurts...

baby.. all i want to say is no matter what happens that beats me right down... i still love you.. i'm not crazy but i have strong feelings for us... promise me if one day you ever felt like you want this relationship back.. please give me a call... i'll wait for that one day.. but if you found someone you love whole heartedly... god please keep it from me..