Everyday..

it's been so long.. since we seperated... that fight we had never came across my mind that it will really happened.. it happened... it's me.. it's all my fault... i shouldn't had said harsh words.. knowing that day by day your love for me starts to fade, it hurts me so... this is the fact, the reality.. but i chose to believe my heart over my head... the love i have for you is so strong i swear i would never let go.. i try to be strong, but in front of you i'm just a weakling boy... i know what you need is a man that could be there for you when you need him.. someone that can be sensitive towards your feelings... all these that i'm not fit into..

we do things that i've never done before with others.. we used to find good food around places... we used to go for steamboat.. we went to sentosa, we had a great day... we shopped for furnitures in Ikea.. we went shopping... you always bullied me when we were outside.. trying to get me irritated... pinch me punch me play around with me and those were our happy times.. we would tell each other how much we miss each other when we didn't get to see each other for days... we would hug each other so tight, it felt you and I didn't want to let go forever.. every kiss on the cheek meant everything... it felt like we were so much in love.. we would get our groceries together, and you would cook for me dinner... there was once when you had to finish your work late in the evening, and had to rush down just to cook dinner for me.. that felt great...

but everything is gone now.. you had started to get away from me... i can't accept the fact.. i really can't... my immaturity, my attitude, my temper that got me into losing you.. the most wonderful girl i could ever ask for, i'm losing her... each and everyday.. since the first day we broke up, i yearn for your call... your messages.. but none came anymore... all i could hear was silence.. there were so much silence outside of me, but so much voices inside... i prayed everyday for hope.. for chances... yes i know i'm stupid and crazy.. because im so in love with you... i'm so afraid of nights.. it's the time where imaginary thoughts, hopeless thoughts all came into my mind... i don't want to disappear in your memories.. i don't want to be a stranger in your eyes... i'm just so emotionally attached to you.. and it's killing me on the inside right now...