Day 17th..

let me go back to your side again... i hate those cold words that arent even from your heart.. give me that smile you gave me the first time we met... look at me again, forgive me because i cant say anything to you.. i'll stay by your side for you, i wont make you cry... this i promise you.. once, just once know my heart hurting... my heart that goes toward you, that loves you i cant be happy without you.. you don't have to be alone... just know my love for you.. i fell in love with you without realizing it... I didnt know, i forgot that you'd be hurt.. but my heart not once left your side... believe my words... please, i love you so much.. i never loved someone else... i never didnt have your love... i never thought of loving another person..

i hated myself even more for miserably thinking... that after i woke up from this sleep, that you'd come back.. now I made a promise that i wont keep... to forget everything about you.. in the memories, i am getting more and more weary... come back to me if you're not too far, if you still love me... i am still waiting for you right here.. If you already forgot about me, i'll wait a little more so i can hate myself more...

its been such a long time since you've left.. i forgot everything including our loving memories... But i dont know why theses tears are falling.. i walk down the street where we used to go... am I having a hard time again? i say to myself, that i can laugh it all off.. i kept telling myself that I dont have even one memory of you left... its really late, you already left.. but i cant forget you... i believed that i forgot you.. but really, i believed that you'd surely come back... maybe i have to hate you and miss you till the end.. when you left I had a harder time... please come back to me baby.. if you remember me again, if you come back to me again... i am always here in this place waiting.. you're the only girl that makes my heart beats faster, and slower... both at the same time..