life is pretty much the same.. repeating the same things everyday... nearly got into a fight in camp.. at that point of time, i was thinking that i could bring a 78kg guy down on the ground and about to pop his shoulder out before he taps during training.. this guy is nothing to me, was about to go swinging at him but things came into my mind... all the training i had and all the while pushing myself over my limit.. is it worth to bring in to a street fight and so what if i beat the shit out of him? will i gain anything? get charged, confine? and all the while about telling myself to control my temper which made me lost something that was so important to me, it's time that i test myself whether how much can i control in a situation like this.. so, i smiled, turned around and took deep breathes... after awhile, the guy came and apologised to me for being in the wrong.. and yeah, why make enemies when you can make friends?

and my ankle has still been hurting.. its been 3 weeks already since the time when i grappled after training... got caught in a footlock but i just didnt wanna tap out and managed to get my foot out, i felt a little pain on my ankle but the impact caused my ankle to swell x3 of my normal size in the middle of the night... didnt thought it would be that serious so just rub it myself with medicated oil and it worked.. swell subside... and thinking that it would heal itself, the pain is still there for 3 fucking solid weeks which restricted my movement.. went to see a sinseh today and he said i tore my ligament and i needed acupuncture... and my face went " WHAT THE FUCK?!".. i even asked can i dont poke needles on my body! LOL. ok.. i hate needles and he's going to poke make of it onto my leg and hand... well it's my first time doing it, but it was actually ok.. phew!