i'm out. after 2 weeks in Tekong. time passes so fast. finally able to book out on friday. went for training on sat and met up with friends for dinner and movie "Wanted". gonna watch "Never Back Down". then home sweet home. and i'm booking back in later on. overall about life in Tekong, physical condition has drop tremondously. all the training was about building muscles and running. my cardio dropped so much that i get easily out of breathe during training yesterday.

first thing when i booked out on fri that i want was to see my dad. my kin and family that is very important to me. second was to go back to my gym asap. FIGHT G is like my second home where all my friends are there and we share the same passion. well everyone welcome me back and talked about how am i and stuffs, i felt blessed. third thing that i wanted to do was to meet up with my friends for catch up.

the last thing which also the very first that i wanted to do was to see my ex gf. photo of her that was kept in my wallet is still in my wallet. i still look at her the way i use to look at. everyone was right, when one get's in NS, that's when all the things that he bottled up for so long finally came right back. i hate this feeling and it sucks. and yet i still wanna be strong. fighting my way through each and everyday. it's only been awhile, and you had a new man. you made the same present that you gave me, adding a letter with the same content. giving the same look that you onced gave me, call him by the same nickname that you once called me, holding his hand to the places we used to. how could you already forget me like this. i don't believe it. did you ever really love me. that person is standing in my place. the lips that onced told me they loved me are now matching someone else's lips.

No matter how much you tell me to stop
and your friends try and stop me and tell me to forget you
It's not possible, I can't do that.
I wait for you, as if a day is a year.
Somehow I remember you and the words that I didn't get to say to you yet, I write them down everyday like this
I love you still so much
I can't believe in seperation
I can't leave that seat where you left my side.
You're the one and only love in my life.
I can't erase you ever.
Until the moment you turn around to me again, I can't leave.
I believed everything like they told me.
If time passes then the scars will probably heal.
Even if it hurts severly like this. I'd probably forget you, a day like that will probably come.
But why does my heart keep hurting? why why am I the only one like this? Even if already you aren't my love, Today too, again I still misses you.