alot of thoughts been going through my mind and i'm just gonna list them down slowly. been training in gym everyday. everytime after warm ups coach would say more than 3 months upstairs and less than that downstairs. when we juniors all went downstairs, coach came down and called me up. felt honoured and happy that i could train with the seniors in such a short time. training on the 2nd level is not easy. we do advance techniques and hardcore cardios. its dead tiring but i love it. BJJ techniques are getting better for me, able maneuver and apply correctly. but anyway, one thing that i'm happy today is that I'M A SENIOR LEVEL NOW!

2nd thing that i want to do is getting 2 tattoos for myself. thinking of getting an angel tattoo on my arm, around the biceps area, and a devil tattoo on my calf. have been wanting to get a tattoo all my life. it will definitely look great getting these 2 on.

3rd thing will be about NS. well the fact that i hate to go in because i have to sacrifice all my time for NS and not able to train as a fighter. but i will still be training on weekends no matter what. but think of the good part, going NS means tough military training. military training means body conditioning. which is great. so kudos for that.

4th thing will be after my NS. i'm thinking whether to continue and study full-time to get my degree. cos i wanna fight professionally full-time as a job. but then thinking about doing that in SG is kindda hard. but i've already planned with my dad, that after my NS i'll be going to Thailand and stay for 3 months. eat, sleep and train everyday for Muay Thai and BJJ. heard from bruce about the training there and it will definitely be an advantage training there.

last but not least, i've never been talking about this for very long. no matter anyone reads or knows, i'm just gonna let my thoughts be written. wanted to text you a message to ask how's everything and are we cool and stuffs before i get into NS. but to think again maybe just a simple message may be a big problem. so i just wish that both of you are doing fine and the most important thing is that you are happy. if you feel down at any moment and cant find anyone to talk to, i can be just a phone call away. feelings do fade away, and i'm saying these things as a friend if you would accept me as one. so no matter whether this is gonna go out of this blog of mine, good luck and take care.

all my mind now is about getting better and better. fights, fights and more fights!