TEAM.PUNISHMENT: June 2008

i'm out. after 2 weeks in Tekong. time passes so fast. finally able to book out on friday. went for training on sat and met up with friends for dinner and movie "Wanted". gonna watch "Never Back Down". then home sweet home. and i'm booking back in later on. overall about life in Tekong, physical condition has drop tremondously. all the training was about building muscles and running. my cardio dropped so much that i get easily out of breathe during training yesterday.

first thing when i booked out on fri that i want was to see my dad. my kin and family that is very important to me. second was to go back to my gym asap. FIGHT G is like my second home where all my friends are there and we share the same passion. well everyone welcome me back and talked about how am i and stuffs, i felt blessed. third thing that i wanted to do was to meet up with my friends for catch up.

the last thing which also the very first that i wanted to do was to see my ex gf. photo of her that was kept in my wallet is still in my wallet. i still look at her the way i use to look at. everyone was right, when one get's in NS, that's when all the things that he bottled up for so long finally came right back. i hate this feeling and it sucks. and yet i still wanna be strong. fighting my way through each and everyday. it's only been awhile, and you had a new man. you made the same present that you gave me, adding a letter with the same content. giving the same look that you onced gave me, call him by the same nickname that you once called me, holding his hand to the places we used to. how could you already forget me like this. i don't believe it. did you ever really love me. that person is standing in my place. the lips that onced told me they loved me are now matching someone else's lips.

No matter how much you tell me to stop
and your friends try and stop me and tell me to forget you
It's not possible, I can't do that.
I wait for you, as if a day is a year.
Somehow I remember you and the words that I didn't get to say to you yet, I write them down everyday like this
I love you still so much
I can't believe in seperation
I can't leave that seat where you left my side.
You're the one and only love in my life.
I can't erase you ever.
Until the moment you turn around to me again, I can't leave.
I believed everything like they told me.
If time passes then the scars will probably heal.
Even if it hurts severly like this. I'd probably forget you, a day like that will probably come.
But why does my heart keep hurting? why why am I the only one like this? Even if already you aren't my love, Today too, again I still misses you.

thanks everyone who wish me all the best! at least i know who's out there caring for me and who's not. thanks my friends!

i miss MMA!

hurt my neck on mon but still continued training on tue.. muscles kindda aching bad so think its best i rest today.. went out with wency to kindda celebrate her birthday in advance... brought her to spaggedies to have lunch and we had the same seat i used to have.. food was still as great... went to catch a movie after that.. "made of honour" is really very nice! although its been on the charts quite some time already... but its a great love comedy.. reached home bath and KO for me... slept like 4hrs the day before..

guys been telling me training in ns will be like a piece of cake for me cos it doesnt even come close to what we do.. furthermore i've been training everyday... well i kind of agree to it cos combat sports is one of the toughest sports.. and furthermore i have a great coach to train us... anyway tommorrow will be the temporary last day of my long term training... gonna give my 200% all out.. kindda miss it... cos Fight G is like my 2nd home.. anyway i will be back on the 2nd weekend for MT and MMA! looking forward to it!

NEVER BACK DOWN.

after much waiting, this movie is finally gonna be released in SG. for those MMA fans, you've gotta watch this.

been training everyday in gym from mon-sat.. really can bear to leave everything behind and just go to NS and waste time... from training everyday in gym to only one day during NS.. SIANS.

met up with sec school mates on fri... went to sakae sushi to have buffet.. it's been quite a long time since we met up... so gathering was great.. after that i went off for BJJ and they went for mahjong... after training called them up and we went to a pub to drink and relax..

met up with lun and guys yesterday to dine at en japan restaurant... food there was damn nice.. and i mean its like really damn nice! lol... we ate alot.. went for midnight movie to watch kung fu panda... it's a must watch! graphics great and real damn funny... went to a small cafe after that for some snacks and home sweet home..

4 more days to training my ass off before NS!

alot of thoughts been going through my mind and i'm just gonna list them down slowly. been training in gym everyday. everytime after warm ups coach would say more than 3 months upstairs and less than that downstairs. when we juniors all went downstairs, coach came down and called me up. felt honoured and happy that i could train with the seniors in such a short time. training on the 2nd level is not easy. we do advance techniques and hardcore cardios. its dead tiring but i love it. BJJ techniques are getting better for me, able maneuver and apply correctly. but anyway, one thing that i'm happy today is that I'M A SENIOR LEVEL NOW!

2nd thing that i want to do is getting 2 tattoos for myself. thinking of getting an angel tattoo on my arm, around the biceps area, and a devil tattoo on my calf. have been wanting to get a tattoo all my life. it will definitely look great getting these 2 on.

3rd thing will be about NS. well the fact that i hate to go in because i have to sacrifice all my time for NS and not able to train as a fighter. but i will still be training on weekends no matter what. but think of the good part, going NS means tough military training. military training means body conditioning. which is great. so kudos for that.

4th thing will be after my NS. i'm thinking whether to continue and study full-time to get my degree. cos i wanna fight professionally full-time as a job. but then thinking about doing that in SG is kindda hard. but i've already planned with my dad, that after my NS i'll be going to Thailand and stay for 3 months. eat, sleep and train everyday for Muay Thai and BJJ. heard from bruce about the training there and it will definitely be an advantage training there.

last but not least, i've never been talking about this for very long. no matter anyone reads or knows, i'm just gonna let my thoughts be written. wanted to text you a message to ask how's everything and are we cool and stuffs before i get into NS. but to think again maybe just a simple message may be a big problem. so i just wish that both of you are doing fine and the most important thing is that you are happy. if you feel down at any moment and cant find anyone to talk to, i can be just a phone call away. feelings do fade away, and i'm saying these things as a friend if you would accept me as one. so no matter whether this is gonna go out of this blog of mine, good luck and take care.

all my mind now is about getting better and better. fights, fights and more fights!

Graduation Day.

went drinking with friends yesterday night for gatherings.

finally i've sold my bike yesterday.. part of me wanted to keep it but it's only right to sell it away and let it find a rightful owner who can really utilise it... miss you XIAO BAI!