Graduation.

yeah.. wednesday was the last paper and it was like yesterday only... how do we celebrate it? meet up with the mates at Changi Village to have our supper.. talk cock... and talk more cock.. after that all decided to slack at the Changi seaside.. we just sat on the ground and start taking the cards out... played bluff.. indian poker... well that was crazy.. it was like in the middle of the night and we were the loudest mates over there... played forfeit of doing pushups, sit ups and squats.. crazy doing all these at that time... well i myself did 100+ pushups altogether.. stakes were high man... haaa.. the last round was and unrestricted bet and it came up to 135 pushups... who kena? wayne that risk taker and he got himself in big shit.. it was like 3.30am and he had to do 135 pushups at a go... seeing him sweat like fuck made us laugh like fuck.. haaa... great night where all of us just enjoy the night having loads of fun without having to worry about studies!

alright my phone's spoiled.. gonna get it repair tomorrow... oh great having freedom!

GREAT AND BAD NEWS.

alright.. for all those STAGE and SHOW's fan... great news cos STAGE HYALINE OF THE WORLD is going to be in Singapore.. it aint another resller shop, but an official one... it would be in town area and if i'm not wrong, Far East Plaza will be the exact location...



DOPE!!! good thing is there's no need to go through Apery to check out the new designs, and go through another middle man to get it... designs and stuffs will be all here in SG too.. well that's good news... bad news? that's for me personally.. people will be more accessible in getting these stuffs

SUBCREW

alright.. this is Subcrew's newest cap... am gonna get this shit!

yeah.. what about the people with the fake shits on the streets?(am not discriminating anyone here) FUCK THE FAKE SHIT. lol..

LOVE is about stamina.. what do you say? stamina means perseverance for the one you love... well damn it.. when both are so in love, everything the other party do is so right... but when one does not love the other anymore, everything the other party do seems ridiculous..

everytime when you were with me, suddenly.. you just want to have freedom and have fun... and everytime because of this reason, you leave me.. i came to see some relationships and i see that some of them have this problem too... where she wants to leave the relationship.. but they are still together cos they love each other...

then.. i come to know we had relationships like anyone else... but just one thing, cos you don't love me anymore.. it feels so strange... a long relationship broke down to a point where 2 person who used to cuddle with each other, become total strangers..

yeah got my Levi's classic original black denim today.. alright... spending spree just got crazier and crazier.. got what i wanted and pending list is still processing... also changed my future plan a little.. was dreaming to own a 1L superbike after i finish my NS all these while but i guess i shall stop riding after that... decided to get a car instead.. or should i say a van? haaa.. anyway am going to get a renault kangoo after that... during CNY went to visit my close uncle who is always 100% against me riding.. he suggested i get a van registered under his company... i was thinking about it and am damn sure i'm gonna change to a 4 wheeler.. cos the superbike that i planned of getting would cost the same too... went to check out the new kangoo online and it's damn nice.. haaa... i can put sofa at the back.. enjoy the aircon... listen to music.. wah i'm dreaming too early! but that is what's gonna happen in another 2yrs time... YES!

S502-0185(WHITE PACKAGE)

LV wallet

Christian DIOR sunglass

Casio GOLD LABEL EDIFICE

just to take a look at it

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503-0021

22ND FEB

alright.. had the first paper today and everyone got fucked... the paper is truly what our lecturer said.. it's gonna be damn difficult... shit man.. hope we pass and not get any supp paper! damn... that threw our morale right down to the drain man..

met jj in the evening and settled our dinner at town... did a little shop around but nothing much caught my eye.. just got a singlet from topman... was having a meeting with the rest to discuss about HK trip.. it's a great night chill out where the five of us could actually make it as FIVE. usually there's only 3 or 4 guys available for meet ups... it's great today.. as usual ordered 4 jugs of carlsberg and drink to our hearts content... it was enjoyable and fun with the peeps.. went to settle our supper and dinner too for lun at swensens... well that's the nearest 24hr food outlet we could find.. lol... well let the pictures do the talking.. chill out peeps.

alright have been preparing for my first paper tommorrow.. been kindda stressful but this will end soon... got my stage swarovski tee today and it's simply dope.. loving it... and got a latest update on my levis classic japan that it's here today! damn gonna meet my dealer on the weekends to get it.. anyway i found 2 schools that i'm gonna join after i graduate... one is mma academy and another is BXG fitness.. decided to join BXG first... checked out the place online and it sure has all the facilities i need to train up.. damn i'm gonna grad in around 5 days time... UPS!

*i feel it ain't worth to love someone who don't cherish it and don't give a fuck.. enough of being treated like a fucktard. it's not i don't love you anymore, but you ain't loving me no more..

我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差
*我的爱是说停不能停
已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的
爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱
我不再
去执拙我是谁
我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的
竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我
而哭泣都是因为爱
也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你
这网里我也撑着
拼了命的守着

some time to slack

alright.. am studying for my first paper on friday and got some time to slack right now... well after my papers i will be damn busy.. got a new job which requires me to go around and earn real big bucks... due to some confidentiality i can't say it out now.. upon working i will be looking for a gilera around... going to change to this little runner for mmy next 2 years in NS.. also, i will be joining a MMA school which is my dream all these while... then i will be going to Hong Kong before i enlist into army... EXAM FASTER FINISH!!!

this is what i will be riding for the next 2yrs..

come to think of it.. have you really care for me... i should have knew the day when i looked into your eyes.. i couldn't see me anymore... you never look at me like the way you used to anymore.. because i love you too much... i was willing to sacrifice everthing including a man's dignity... and it's because i gave in too much that made you took it for granted.. until a time when you think that it should be like that... you made everything i do so exaggerating.. you're right... our thinking were so much different.. you are still in your own world... you want to be treated like a princess.. you want people to go your way... everything you do is right.. i really give up in you... i still love you as much.. but it's time to stop my love for you... this period of time is long enough for me to see me and you clearly.. the day when we were together i wanted to settle down with you... but you just want to have fun.. you wanted to be with me because you need someone to accompany you when you're bored... but when you got your friends around you stop texting me.. i knew i was never in your priority but i hacked it... because i love you.. why do you wanna discover this love with me so deep and said you want to give it all up... you knew all the while i love you alot and you abused it.. think about it when we had our quarrels, i was the one who find you up... i was the one who apologise no matter right or wrong.. you just sat back and relax and assume everything will go your way... with or without me, you are fine with it.. but why do you agree to be with me all these while? you always find excuses to cover up for youself... you told me to speak to you softly when you're grumbling.. why must i shout..? think again.. when i'm feeling grumpy what did you do? you gave me the can't be bothered face... and then you will start scolding me.. as much as i have said things i shouldn't say, i apologised and find ways to make it alright... but what about you? you never apologised and blame me for what i am.. you never had the mindset to make it alright... i admit i have my shortcomings.. but i've done my very best as a boyfriend... you had your shorticomings too and i accept it... too bad you don't accept mine.. the fact that you could be so heartless for this past 1 month i already understand i'm not in your heart anymore...

am gonna let this baby of mine off soon.. been with me for only less than a year... but it serves me power when i wanted.. to upgrade to a 1L bike 2yrs later..? maybe, maybe not.. my passion for riding somehow's not there... shall see how then.. damn she's gorgeous...

Alright. went to town today to settle up my lunch/dinner and did a little shopping around. went to look at watches at takashimaya and saw this dope watch and am gonna get it. well the price don't come cheap but it's bling and i love it.

EDIFICE.

THINK THIS.

when you change for someone who's not feeling it, leave. it's not worth to.

ALRIGHT. DOPE STUFFS ARE BACK.

been doing some crazy shit ass shopping before CNY and seriously back to a shopping addict! talk about fashion which i am much more interested in, yeah it never felt better. alright got myself a 2 kiks tyo X aki hoshino tees, a pair of 503 levis jap, and a pair of DOPE ass nike air force supreme. and when i thought i had just finished getting stuffs for my coming CNY, i got myself another WHAT'S GOOD x KNOWLEDGE tee and a white WHAT'S X GOOD trucker cap. wanted to get the black ones with 3M logo but were sold out long long ago so got a white glitter instead. Dopi DOPE and i spent around 1k for my CNY stuffs.

well i went to cathay early morning on sunday to get myself another DOPE cap. why queue? cos it's only limited to 50pcs in SG. i got one cos i like it but most people got it to resell. damn.. if only i could bring another friend who is not interested to queue with me(cos 1 person limited to 1 cap). the cap's retail is at a 130bucks, and amazingly people could sell it at 250-300 bucks in forum. oh damn i can't make money like i wanted. ordered a stage swarovski tee from a friend and it will be here in SG soon by this week, if possible! now what's next? 2 pairs of levis original classics are waiting for me this weekend too. oh damn i can't resist DOPE FASHION. should be going down to HK right after my exams to find my dad, and that's where more shopping comes in!

pics up below!

WHAT'S X GOOD TRUCKER


NIKE AIR FORCE 1 SUPREME 07






DOPE CAP. FUSHCIA IS THE NEW BLACK!


STAGE DIAMOND POCKET TEE


LEVIS ORIGINAL CLASSIC 503-0021


LEVIS ORIGINAL CLASSIC 503-0321

FUCKTARD.

Alright, enough of all the past craps i had. why getting beat down by someone who don't even gives a fuck about you? yah i had this figured out. i live my life for myself, not for someone who don't deserves it. ain't gonna be no fucktard no more!

that's it...

really had a had time sleeping these few days.. didnt even slept the whole night yesterday... alot of things have been running through my mind.. today will be the start of home alone once again... i don't know if i can make it.. i'm afraid i will start thinking of things i shouldn't... have been opening up my inbox and read all the messages we had.. mixed feelings starts to arise... in a good way, we were so loving last time.. in a bad way, we're strangers this time...

i really miss you alot.. but you don't seem to care at all...

i miss you.

i cant get to sleep.. im getting too weak... suddenly i miss you alot.. too much that i can't seem to keep my head clear... everything seems so plain to me.. where are you... baby where are you.. i really miss you alot and it's killing me... i asked you and you say you love me.. but why now you say you don't... how could you leave without feeling bad.. do you still think of me... it's been more than a month.. there's no news of you... we've been together for so long.. you were like part of my family... we used to do everything together.. don't you remember? please remember... i love you alot.. and i miss you too much... i really can't take it anymore.. i really can't....

hate this feeling.

i come to realize no matter how i change you will still be the same... no matter what i do you will still be the same.. no doubt i still have strong feelings for you... and you abuse it by dominating me..

the feelings not right anymore..

yes.. it's the right anymore... no more talks.. no more messages... just like that and we became strangers.. what's worse we became strangers that can never talk to each other anymore... i feel like dialing your number on my phone everytime.. but i know there will still be the same voice that i never want to hear...

i lay on my bed but then I think about you even more... i miss you.. i look at the clock and it's past 3 AM... i can't sleep.. i've looked at my phone twice in hopes you'd call but my heart sinks.. i'm a man who has too weak of a heart... i turn the radio on and cry to the familiar songs.. because all those days that we cried and laughed together are left infront of my eyes... i believe in you and it's all i think about you.. i'm hurting to death and i hate you with all my pain... but how can i forget you and go on? i don't have the courage to go a day without you... seperation is too hard for me..

have you hurt as much as i have? have you cried as much? have you even cared to think about me? you know... how can you forget me and go on? you were the one who said you couldn't do without me... why is love so easy for you?

Day 27th..

i wonder do you still wear the same necklace i used to give you... i wonder do you still sleep on the same pillow i gave you.. i wonder do you still wear the same watch i gave you... i wonder do you still keep our photos.. i wonder do you still keep mine... i wonder do you still think of me sometimes.. do you still remember what we use to have... do you still remember our memories.. do you still remember each and every moment we spent together... i wonder do you still have feelings for me..

all the things we used to do together are still so real to me... like it was only yesterday.. all the words we used to say to each other.. it was just so nice to hear... all the good memories we had, i still remember it.. all the bad memories we've been through... i still remember it.. and only the bad memories made the good ones much more significant... without the bad ones, good memories will never be felt better.. it's day 27th, and the feeling i have is just the same as the feeling i had... i felt sharp pains in my heart.. i don't know why you could make me feel so terrible... one minute you say you love me and promise we will never leave each other because we love each other so much.. but the next minute you left and i had no news of you...

i do alot of things to keep myself occupied.. but whenever i have time to breathe and think properly, images of you comes into my mind... i miss the days i would meet you after work for dinner.. i miss the days we would walk around looking at everything... i miss the days of you hugging me.. i miss the days of you holding my hand... i miss the days of you lying on my shoulder when we were on the bus.. i miss the days of you saying you miss that smell of me... i miss the days of us slacking at home watching tv, cooking dinner and taking naps.. i miss all and everything of you... all these just keeps on repeating in my head.. it feels so heavy i wish i could stop it... i want to but i can't..

i can't believe it..

i heard it today... that you already have a new man.. from you friends mouth, it was passed on... how you were keeping company surprised me.. giving him the same look you once gave me.. split love with another person, how could you already forget me like this... i don’t believe it, did you ever really love me? call him by the same nickname you called me... hold his hand at the places I took you to.. like a person at a march for the first time, pretend to wait in anticipation... those were all precious memories made with me.. they’ll all be erased if you do them with him too... why are you erasing our memories, why why.. the lips that once told me they loved me are now matching someone else’s lips...

i'm still so affected by you.. i thought everything was starting to heal... but my heart starts to ache again.. i guess i cant do much... you are no longer by my side..